Another step in my trip.
I am leaving to Vienna today.
I am going to meet Jesse and Celine from Before Sunrise feelings about this city.

Hopefully, I will also collect some thoughts to  c r e a t e .
Because you need to travel o compose yourself.

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads; afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments will define us for the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief. And beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead

One Tree Hill

Nagle zapragnęła pisać. Liczyła na to, że pisanie uwolni jej duszę, pomoże jej się wznieść wyżej i wyżej, z dala od porzucania marzeń i temperowania wrażliwego postrzegania świata. Tego dnia oburzyła się, gdy przeczytała stwierdzenie "if you want to achieve happiness - lower your demands". Potworne tchórzostwo, bzdeta napisania z myślą o zrezygnowanych ludziach.
Choćbym miała skonać, nie zrezygnuję z moich marzeń.

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"- Why have you taken this job?
- I like designing houses. (...)
- But why do you make fun of it? Why not do something you believe in, which is true inside yourself?
- Then I'd be idle. What about you?
- I try to busy myself with things I believe in. To live in line with some form of truth.
- How do you know which is right?
- People feel what is true and what is right. We fail, but I think we should strive for spiritual perfection."


Bergman The passion of Anna

I was thinking...
For me it's better I don't
romanticize things as much anymore.
I was suffering so much all the time.
I still have lots of dreams, but they're
not in regard to my love life.
It doesn't make me sad,
it's just the way it is.

Is that why you're in a relationship
with somebody who's...
never around?

Yes, obviously, I can't deal with
the day to day life of a relationship.
Yeah, we have, you know,
this exciting time together
and then he leaves and I miss him,
but at least I'm not dying inside.
When someone is always
around me, I'm like suffocating!

No, wait, you just said that
you need to love and be loved...

Yeah, but when I do,
it quickly makes me nauseous!
It's a disaster...
I mean, I'm really happy
only when I'm on my own.
Even being alone...
it's better than...
sitting next to a lover
and feeling lonely.
It's not so easy for me to be a romantic.
You start off that way, and,
after you've been
screwed over a few times...
You... you forget about all your
delusional ideas, and you
just take what comes into your life.
That's not even true, I haven't been...
screwed over, I've just had too many...
bla relationship. They weren't mean,
they cared for me, but...
they were no real...
connection, or excitement.
At least, not from my side.

//

You know...
it's not even that, I was...
I was fine.
Until I read your fucking book!
It stirred shit out from you,
It reminded me how...
genuinely romantic I was,
how I had so much hope in things and...
now it's like...
I don't believe in anything
that relates to love,
I don't feel things for people anymore.
In a way...
I put all my romanticism
into that one night
and I was never able
to feel all this again.
Like...
somehow this night took
things away from me and...
I expressed them to you and
you took them with you!
It made me feel cold,
like if love wasn't for me!


//


Before Sunset

Again,
I heard I am so much like her, or she is so much like me.
Is that so?

xx

Chloe

Btw, did I ever mention how deeply I fell in love with this movie? It's so simple, and so magical at once.

/ Well, you know what it's like when you first sleep with someone you don't know?
It's... you, like, become this blank canvas and it gives you an opportunity to project onto that canvas who you want to be. That's what's interesting because everybody does that.
Well, what happens is while you're projecting who you want to be... this gap opens up between who you want to be and who you really are. And in that gap, it shows you what's stopping you becoming who you want to be./

Weekend, 2011

How many days have I lost?
How can I get back to the place where i started?
I am outside the house trying to find my way in,
But it's locked (...) and I've lost the key. (...)
And if I dare to go inside I wonder will I ever be able to find my way out?
If I could go back to the beginning, I could start it over again.
I could go line by line. (...)
I could try to make it...better.

Proof 2005

With every goodbye you learn.

So you planned your garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

Stealing Beauty, 1996

superior

E: What have I done to deserve this?
A: Nothing in particular. It's just that you always harp on your principles and drone on about how important everything is. (...) Everything centers around your ego. You can't live without feeling superior. Everything must be desperately important and meaningful. (...) I used to believe that you were right.


Ingmar Bergman, The Silence

Before Sunrise

Jesse: I kind of see this all love as this, escape for two people who don't know how to be alone. People always talk about how love is this totally unselfish, giving thing, but if you think about it, there's nothing more selfish.
________

Celine: I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent icon of womanhood, and without making it look my whole life is revolving around some guy. But loving someone, and being loved means so much to me. We always make fun of it and stuff. But isn't everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?

La frontière de l'aube

I know you know
how much I need you,
because it hurts me so much,
you must feel it.
You want to punish me? What for?
You had your revenge,
you can come back.
You must come back.
You know it as well as I do.

- Dużo palisz. W porównaniu do tego co wcześniej.

- Sporo wtedy paliłam.
Uwielbiam palić. Palenie jest jak zapominanie.

Zapalić i się zamknąć.
Dym zakrywa wszystko.
Całe to gówno.

Les Amours imaginaires

Je t'aime

nothing personal

- Where are you going?
- I'm just going... Talent knows when to stop.
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