This feeling when you see more than is shown and can be read,
but at the same time you perception is disturbed
and you are not sure whether you can trust her or not.

Then you come to the point of panic.
Panic based on lack of real perception.

When you don't know how to act,
when you can't speak
because your words seem to be pointless
and your thoughts are cheating on you
so you cannot express anything
without the risk of being exposed to being a fool.